See I told you I wouldn't be able to do this in order...
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
This is an easy one because so many things wear me out.
Like:
Being checked out, and ogled ever, mostly especially at 8 in the morning on a crowded train.
Not being taken seriously ever.
When my roommates call me "mom".
Being constantly objectified.
Being called pet names by anyone other than my boyfriend and my lady friends.
When people tell me I am too skinny.
Having to interact with people in general is increasingly wearing.
Feeling like I have to do everything myself, because no one else is responsible or reliable. (cooking, cleaning, dishes, laundry, shoveling...)
Okay, so maybe that last one is a little exaggerated. It's the the past few months, especially the past week have been so taxing. Joe's actually really good at helping around the house most of the time and I really do like taking care of him and don't mind cleaning up his messes (it's really everyone else I don't like cleaning up after). But for the past few months Joe has been working crazy hours (long story) and the past week he has been sick. So pretty much the past week for me has been minimal sleep due to loud coughing beside me (my poor boy), waking up early, going to work (its been a stressful week at work too because of the snow!), listening to Joe talk about how bad he feels all day, reminding him to take medicine, and still trying to focus on work and, always feeling so bad about the fact that I don't have 'get better now magic'. Then I leave work at 7:30 it's cold and dark and has been rain/snow/hailing all week, going to the store, trying to come up with some plan for dinner, getting home, cooking, doing dishes, listening to Joe complain, forcing him to take medicine and then repeating the whole thing!!!! I mean I love him and he is miserable and I feel so bad about it, I am just so worn out and want it to be my turn to be taken care of! Geese it's never my turn poop! I know he really does appreciate everything I do for him, it's just hard to remember that when you feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to even try and think of yourself or what you need. All the being over work has taken a huge toll on our relationship as well we spend almost no time (awake) together, unless it's TV time because we are too tired to think, and the worst part is we have nothing to show for it really because we are still broke despite all the over time. Yessshhh.
(Super ranty...sorry)
But Smelly Love day is soon maybe we will get a night home alone. I have been trying to hint to the roommates that they should all go out... they normally aren't good with hints though.
ha.
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
This is an easy one because so many things wear me out.
Like:
Being checked out, and ogled ever, mostly especially at 8 in the morning on a crowded train.
Not being taken seriously ever.
When my roommates call me "mom".
Being constantly objectified.
Being called pet names by anyone other than my boyfriend and my lady friends.
When people tell me I am too skinny.
Having to interact with people in general is increasingly wearing.
Feeling like I have to do everything myself, because no one else is responsible or reliable. (cooking, cleaning, dishes, laundry, shoveling...)
Okay, so maybe that last one is a little exaggerated. It's the the past few months, especially the past week have been so taxing. Joe's actually really good at helping around the house most of the time and I really do like taking care of him and don't mind cleaning up his messes (it's really everyone else I don't like cleaning up after). But for the past few months Joe has been working crazy hours (long story) and the past week he has been sick. So pretty much the past week for me has been minimal sleep due to loud coughing beside me (my poor boy), waking up early, going to work (its been a stressful week at work too because of the snow!), listening to Joe talk about how bad he feels all day, reminding him to take medicine, and still trying to focus on work and, always feeling so bad about the fact that I don't have 'get better now magic'. Then I leave work at 7:30 it's cold and dark and has been rain/snow/hailing all week, going to the store, trying to come up with some plan for dinner, getting home, cooking, doing dishes, listening to Joe complain, forcing him to take medicine and then repeating the whole thing!!!! I mean I love him and he is miserable and I feel so bad about it, I am just so worn out and want it to be my turn to be taken care of! Geese it's never my turn poop! I know he really does appreciate everything I do for him, it's just hard to remember that when you feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to even try and think of yourself or what you need. All the being over work has taken a huge toll on our relationship as well we spend almost no time (awake) together, unless it's TV time because we are too tired to think, and the worst part is we have nothing to show for it really because we are still broke despite all the over time. Yessshhh.
(Super ranty...sorry)
But Smelly Love day is soon maybe we will get a night home alone. I have been trying to hint to the roommates that they should all go out... they normally aren't good with hints though.
ha.
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