Day 20 and 19

Day 20. Write about your job and why you love it or hate it.

Work has been crappy all week, so I figure it's a good time for this one.
First off I didn't always hate my job, like most things the more time I spend here, the less I like it.
It's not all bad, my hours are pretty awesome (they would be more awesome if I were more productive in the morning and if Joe didn't go to bed so early) I work 12ish to 7:30 Monday-Friday and have weekends off. That's really why I am still working here. If I could find a job that paid the same and gave me weekends off I would be there in a heartbeat!
I also like MOST of the people I work with, with a few exception they are all goof fun people, although a few of my favorites have quit/ been fired recently (kinda a bummer).
And well although this job makes me feel as if my brain is melting, it pays the bills and gives me time to blog. ha!


But back to what I hate about, First off my hours (the 12ish thing) so I should be working 11:10-7:30, 8 hours a day 40 hours a week, but my hours got cut back in November with a promise I would get them back...and well I did for like a week and now they are gone again.
The other thing is that I have 8 hours of work to do but really only 3 to do it (and now even less).
I had a meeting with my boss and the person who works in the morning on Tuesday, basically we got yelled at because "we don't get along well enough/ spend enough time together/ we are crappy at team work" What?
Since when is being best friends with your co-workers a requirement?
I mean Joy (morning person) and I get along fine! We talk, and complain about our crappy roommates together, we just also get a lot of work done, and in order to do that we cant be in the same place at the same time...nothing would get done!
So as a result of this meeting I had to make a schedule not just when we come in and when we leave, but what we should be doing when we are here. I mean come on! really? So now there is allotted hanging out time, and when I get to work at 12:30 I cant even do any real work until 1! WTF is that?!?

So stupid!

Oh well "it's wouldn't be called work if you were supposed to like it"
-My Mommy

"It's only work if you would rather be somewhere else"
- J M Barrie, Peter and Wendy.

I would pretty much rather be 1000 places than here.

Day 19. Write about your favorite comfort food (we are women- we ALL have comfort food!)

Oh comfort food!
I have so many favorites!
Carrot cake, I really love the carrot cake from Whole Foods (hate Whole Foods though) They are mini and so fancy looking, Love it! Chrissie and I had a girls night like a month ago when Joe was in NYC, we got 2 bottles of Andre, an assortment on mini cakes from Whole Foods and pizza! Best girls night ever! I need one of those again soon!

Meatloaf and Mac and Cheese!
Joe makes his mom's meatloaf and mac and cheese sometimes...it's amazing!
I never LOVED meatloaf, until Joe made me this the first time, it will put you in a food coma but boy howdy is it gooood!
And best part, I don't have to cook when we have this!

I feel also I should include, Soy Pumpkin Lattes, and Chai Lattes, from Starbucks. I dont get them often I am a pretty die hard just coffee, and soy milk person most of the time, but sometimes being bad feels so good especially when it involves a 300000 calorie coffee drink.

OH AND SMOOTHIES!
I so wish there was a planet smoothie around here, alas there isn't, so I am left dreaming about 2 piece bikini smoothies all day!

Ah well I am super hungry now so I am going to have to end this.

(Also Joe is drunk at work...what an A-HOLE!)
I only say that because I am jealous
A. because I am not drunk at work
B. because he goes out to lunch with his friends and has a good time and then comes home to me I cook him dinner he complains and we got to bed.
It's like we spend no time together(not sleeping) it's starting to really get to me.


ARG! Hungry and Angry, BRING ME A SMOOTHIE!!!!! NOW!!!

Day 17

Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.

So I am not really sure why I picked this one for today, I am in a crappy mood, everyone I know is in a crappy mood, but sometimes the best thing to do when you are feeling blah is to think about the things that make you really happy. So I am going to give it a shot.

It's hard to pick just 3...

My 'go to' happy thought is bed time (or weekend morning time) basically anytime my little family is all is bed. I just love so much laying in bed next to Joe with Buck stretched out between us.I am super lucky to have the two most handsome boys in the world to cuddle with (Even though neither of them really like cuddling). I really love everything about the going to bed/ weekend wake up time. Pillow talk, and Mcgiver/ Golden Girls, and sleepy kissed, the sound of snores and purrs. It really is the only time I get to forget about anything that exists outside my bed, I like it!

I guess next would be my nephew and my sister.
I don't get to see them as much as I would like, but when I do it's all happy times! There is something about cuddly happy babies that makes everything better!
And Holly, I couldn't think of a better best friend. I love that we can just laugh at nothing for hours, you know how there are some people who when you hear them laugh it makes you laugh and it's just so hard to stop even though it hurts? That's Holly! I wouldn't be me without her, and she is my hero, the strongest, bravest person ever!
Also while we are on the subject of family, the fact that I am now friends with both my parents makes me really happy!

I guess the third thing, would be baking. I don't get to do it very much at all, but it does make me so so happy! also baking with friends! AMAZING! Some of my happiest memories involve drunk baking with friends. HA oh the good ol' days. I hope I will be able to do some more of that soon!

Sigh! I am feeling a little better. I hope I will be able to add Going to the gym with Chrissie to the happy thoughts list soon! I am a little scared though because I am so out of shape, but that's something that won't fix itself, and it's better I go with someone who will yell at me and push me to keep going, because I am giving myself 10minutes before I try and run away! (wish me luck haha)

things I like

best salad ever

BUCKAROO!!

Joey's gifts hand made card (knock-off of a vintage valentine) when he opened the cap gun he actually yelled "YOU'RE THE COOLEST!!" (I am).

AHHHHH!

So I left my camera at home...so no photos today.
Bummer city.


I am so sick of having roommates!
I hate them!
So the plan was that they were going to go out so Joe and I could have a night alone.
(dinner and a movie)
And so Doug went to work at 7:30 like normal,
and I stupidly thought that Adam and Chuck would leave at 8-8:30...
Nope!
10 they left at fucking 10pm
(yeah that would be fine id Joe and I weren't in bed by 11 every night)
Yeah so I had to give Joe his gifts in front of everyone, witch doesn't bother me but they are all single and I thought for sake of being nice I would wait, well I didn't get the chance.
(I got Joe a book that hasn't come yet, I got him a cap gun witch he LOVES, and a bunch of candy I put in fancy jars)
Well back to the let down Saturday was, I put off dinner as long as possible but it was 9 and we were hungry so we ate in the dining room, Chucked watched TV in the living room and in the middle of dinner Adam's friend showed up, (awkward) and they drank their dude bro drinks and yelled through the rest of our dinner.
At 10 we put on Breathless (part of Joe's gift to me) and well by 11 I was asleep.
At 3am I was awoken by drunk Adam (it happens one a week so I shouldn't have been surprised) But I was, at 3am Adam was pouring himself a bowl of Skittles out of the candy I got for Joe, (I know stupid me for leaving it in the dining room and assuming people wouldn't touch it because they knew it wasn't theirs).
Ugh I really hate them
And on top of it all after I spent 2 hours cleaning Saturday the house is a mess!

The weekend wasn't all bad. Dinner came out good, Joe got to go record shopping and see his friends, I got a Jean-Luc Gerard box set and "Then God created B.B" from Joe.
Brigitte Bardot
what a babe!



We went to dinner at Cambridge Common and it was delish!
And it's 50 degrees out right now!
Hell Yeah!!!

"the best things come to those who bake"

http://www.marthastewart.com/tv/martha-bakes

The only good thing about Mondays!

Everything else about Monday sorta sucks.

Alot!

Valentines photos coming soon, along with and new dinner post in &Junk.

And a review of "The Whoopie Pie Book" by Claire Ptak.

And maybe a new post on the blog project.

Fun, fun, fun!

Days 4, 14 and 11

Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.

Day 14. Style 31. Post an outfit pic!

Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).


So I have a chictopia where you can see style pictures,
So I am not going to post then here.

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And I have a cooking/baking blog so I am not going to post recipes...
&Junk


I am lazy, but you shouldn't be. Check them out!

LOVE DAY

"They sell us love as divinity
When it's only a social obscenity
Underneath they're all lovable"


So I know Valentines Day is a mockery of something that once meant something and its just a capitalist plot to exploit people, and draw them further into consumerism.

And normally Joe and I don't make a big deal out of it, but I want excuse to kick my roommates out for a night and to make cute crafts and cookies!
Weather or not it actually happens...who knows.

But here's the plan,
(I know this is boring but I am just so excited)
I am going to wake up Saturday, feed the cat so Joe can sleep in (Buckaroo the past few days starting at about 6am will bite/scratch Joe until he gets up to feed him, and it's weird because he was getting really good at waiting till 8ish to be fed...he's a spoiled cat). I am going to make coffee at 11ish, and be ready to leave by then.
I am going to go to grocery store and CVS to get candy and food (to be explained later)
Joe is going to be sent off record shopping and I am going to cook and decorate!

Oh it's going to be so fun!!

Enchiladas and salad for dinner, M&M cookies and a candy centerpiece!
All the recipes will get posted on my other blog (Monday)
and crafts and pics here
WOO-HOO!

Day 2 and day 18

So before I jump into days 2 and 18, I wanted you all to know, Over the weekend I got this^ Serge Gainsbourg album. I found it used a Newbury Comics for $10...and was so excited and Joe being the sweetheart he is got it for me. YAY!
Also I got a hair cut last night, its a little too Joan Jett for me but Christine is a genius for making the year old of a hack job hair cut I had look good! Plus Joe and I got to hang out with a couple witch is really nice sometimes, we ate pizza and watched an ICP movie in our bed (because the living room was pot smoker central). It was super nice. It's also nice to be around people who understand that 11pm is bed time.
This morning all the roommates went out to breakfast, all 5 of us hanging out isn't really something that happens a lot so that was nice (except some one who will not be named has to be Debbie downer about everything, wah). Whatever best "homefries" ever breakfast beer and loads of coffee, nothing can wreck that, nothing!
(Not even knowing that the boys all went home to relax all day and I had to go to work sigh)

Any ways...
Day 2's question is, What makes you uniquely you?
and
Day 18's is, describe you personalty?

Well I am pretty sure MY PERSONALTY is what makes me uniquely me. So instead of answering this twice I am going to combined it.
I am so smart.


This is me right now.
Anyways no with it right.
What makes me me? a lot of things.
I guess that what makes anyone anyone. I am 100 different things all at once.
I am very anti-social, but I like to party, with my close friends at my house. I used to like going out but not so much any more. I am a really quiet person (unless I am drinking then I no volume control at all). I am a nihilist, but I am happy. I try really hard to find the good in everything, most of the time I do it for Joe's sake but I fell I am pretty good at it. I enjoy cooking a cleaning it's my me time, and really the only alone time I need. I hate to be alone, but I don't like crowds. I am pensive. I am a realists. I am a better person when I have some one to take care of. I am very self aware but unwilling to work on my short comings and change for the better, I am stubborn, yet very laid back. I hate being in control, but when I have to be I am very good at it. I like having a plan, when there isn't a plan I get really stressed out, and when the plan change I pretty much stop functioning like an adult and revert to having tantrums. I am impulsive at times, mostly on lazy Saturdays. I have a bad habit of being really excited about things, and making plans and talking things up and never following through. (like learning how to play guitar, making puppets, tap dancing, learning French...oh the list goes on). I guess that's a brief over view of me. I really feel that a persons interests can tell you a lot about who they are. The things they like and what they don't like, I mean to to the point of saying "ho you like that band, you must be this type of person" unless said band is ICP then you pretty much know exactly who they are.
Here is a super quick list of things I really like and some things I really don't like.

I like music, a lot. I go through these phases where I will be really into something for a few weeks and then on to the next. Right now it's Serge, Crass, and French pop music from the 60's and 70's.
I am the most happy in the whole world on Sunday mornings when Joe and I wake up late, have coffee in bed, watch Mcgiver, and have kitten cuddle time.
I live baking! But I never do it!
Martha Stewart is who I aspire to be pretty much!
I don't like kids, except for E and Riley (who I used to baby sit) and my nephew Bear (he is an angel).
I hate the thought of eating meat, but I love bacon, and due to the lack of self control I now have I am not vegetarian, I wish I was though.
I don't like TV, I watch a lot of it though, a lot of Golden Girls.
I like having friends, I am a really bad friend though.
I hate leaving my house, but I don't like being home because my house is always a mess and my roommates suck kinda.


That's all I am going to say for now, but keep reading the blog and you will find out more about me...
WOO-HOO!
I know!


Oh yeah so that my be a little repetitive, I wrote half of this yesterday and half today and I am bad at rereading. Sorry sorta.

Day 8

So I am not feeling so hot today, but in any case I figured I would do this one today.
It's an easy one.

Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!

So, beauty tips, I have a bunch. After going through so many phases and styles I have found what works for me, how I think I look best, and a really quick and easy routine for the morning.

My first tip is Targets Up brand, so I used to have a lot more money than I do now, and I used brand name products all the time, now I can't so much afford to, after trying out bunches of store brands (CVS, Walgreens, ect.) I fond the one that is truest to the name brand products, I guess this is really a matter of opinion because I haven't done tests and crap, but for what I use I am pretty sure I am right.
The 2 I couldn't live without:

I Love this lotion baceuse it's unscented (comapirable to Avino) works so well and I use it on my tattoos even (instead of A&D or tattoogoo)!

My second tip, also having to do with this lotion, in the winter my hair gets soo staticky, because its so fine, normally not a huge issue but I am growing out my hair anf it clings to my neck (worst feeling ever!) What I foud was the best way to fix this without making my hair greesy is to take a dine size blob of lotion and rub it around my palms and then into just the ends of my hair. TA-DA bye bye static.

2 more and then I am done!

I really like using packed powder eyeliner, I have this really great revlon matte jet back one, it's in a 4 pack but I really only use the black. I don't like using eye primer or finisher because well, they are expencive, the problem is though if you don't within 10 minutes you have the black lines above the crase on your eyelid and it looks kinda dumb. Well to keep the eyeliner in place I use a qtip and spray some hair spray on the end and dab the liner (dabbing is really important because you will wipe off or smudge the eyeliner otherwise). I use Freeze It brand hair spray (the origanal hold), and it washes off fine with face wash and water.
*I will put up some pictures of this tomorrow or Wednesday*

And my last tip!
Soy milk! I don't necessarily think its the soy milk as much as the lack of dairy that does it, but when I am really good about not eating or drinking dairy my skin clears up. I don't really have bad acne (anymore) but I will get 1 or 2 pimples now and then but if I drink Soy in my cereal and coffee and don't eat tons of cheese my skin looks a lot better. This one really is backed by science, because of the hormones in cow milk now days it affects your body in a lot of crazy ways. I am not going to get too preachy about it because dairy is one of the things I tend to get that way about, but trust me it works!!


That's all for now.
TTFN

day 12

See I told you I wouldn't be able to do this in order...


Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.

This is an easy one because so many things wear me out.
Like:
Being checked out, and ogled ever, mostly especially at 8 in the morning on a crowded train.
Not being taken seriously ever.
When my roommates call me "mom".
Being constantly objectified.
Being called pet names by anyone other than my boyfriend and my lady friends.
When people tell me I am too skinny.
Having to interact with people in general is increasingly wearing.
Feeling like I have to do everything myself, because no one else is responsible or reliable. (cooking, cleaning, dishes, laundry, shoveling...)

Okay, so maybe that last one is a little exaggerated. It's the the past few months, especially the past week have been so taxing. Joe's actually really good at helping around the house most of the time and I really do like taking care of him and don't mind cleaning up his messes (it's really everyone else I don't like cleaning up after). But for the past few months Joe has been working crazy hours (long story) and the past week he has been sick. So pretty much the past week for me has been minimal sleep due to loud coughing beside me (my poor boy), waking up early, going to work (its been a stressful week at work too because of the snow!), listening to Joe talk about how bad he feels all day, reminding him to take medicine, and still trying to focus on work and, always feeling so bad about the fact that I don't have 'get better now magic'. Then I leave work at 7:30 it's cold and dark and has been rain/snow/hailing all week, going to the store, trying to come up with some plan for dinner, getting home, cooking, doing dishes, listening to Joe complain, forcing him to take medicine and then repeating the whole thing!!!! I mean I love him and he is miserable and I feel so bad about it, I am just so worn out and want it to be my turn to be taken care of! Geese it's never my turn poop! I know he really does appreciate everything I do for him, it's just hard to remember that when you feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to even try and think of yourself or what you need. All the being over work has taken a huge toll on our relationship as well we spend almost no time (awake) together, unless it's TV time because we are too tired to think, and the worst part is we have nothing to show for it really because we are still broke despite all the over time. Yessshhh.

(Super ranty...sorry)

But Smelly Love day is soon maybe we will get a night home alone. I have been trying to hint to the roommates that they should all go out... they normally aren't good with hints though.

ha.

day 1

(I am going to go by day for the title but I will also post the question before the answers, because I am probably not going to go in order)

Day 1. What does beauty mean to you?

This is a harder question than I thought, because beauty means so many things to me. I guess depending on context.
Wikipedia says:

"Beauty is a characteristic of a person, animal, place, object, or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction… An "ideal beauty" is an entity which is admired, or possesses features widely attributed to beauty in a particular culture, for perfection^.

The experience of "beauty" often involves the interpretation of some entity as being in balance and harmony with nature, which may lead to feelings of attraction and emotional well-being^. Because this is a subjective experience, it is often said that "beauty is in the eye of the beholder." In its most profound sense, beauty may engender a salient experience of positive reflection about the meaning of one's own existence. A subject of beauty is anything that resonates with personal meaning."

I would say I believe that, I would say I couldn't define physical beauty as I see it, because I have such a vast list of characteristics I find to be beautiful. I think that self confidence and comfort are beautiful, I think that imperfection is beautiful, and originality, I guess however the question was not about physical beauty. I don't like the word “beauty”, I don't really ever use it to describe things.


"...the interpretation of some entity as being in balance and harmony with nature..." most things I would describe as beautiful, I guess would also be described in that way, however I also find ciaos , disorder and things that are not natural to be beautiful.

Beauty is everything
Everything is beautiful

life
death

crooked teeth
dirty feet
weather beaten hands
chapped lips

machines
trees

babies
wrinkles

absurd
unnerving
and unusual
things

roses

diamonds

rust

gold

All of that is beauty.

That's all I got for now, I am sure if I had been asked this question years ago I would have had a different answer, I am actually pretty sure you could ask me tomorrow and I would have a different answer. That's the thing that makes life and people and our minds beautiful , they change all the time.

Blog project

So I found this one on a friends Blog
It's called Project 31,
I guess it was started here
I thought when skimming through it it was a super good idea, upon really reading it, I realized it was a Christian thing (cool?)...I don't mean that, to each her own I guess.
I however and not Christian, so I am going to do a modified venison of this because I think it's a good topic. I will post the whole list, and the ones I am going to answer will be bold and pink, I am also not going to do this for 30 days because that's more of a commitment than I am willing to make really and I am so lazy and forgetful.

So here is the original list:

Day 1. What does beauty mean to you?
Day 2. What makes you uniquely you?
Day 3. Who is someone you know who inspires beauty?
Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6. Jaded beauty. Has the world's definition of beauty ever jaded you?
Day 7. Write a blog to encourage another beautiful woman.
Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!
Day 9. What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10. What is Jesus teaching you as a wife, mom, or friend? (Or just woman in general?)
Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13. Write about something you would like to change about yourself for the better.
Day 14. Style 31. Post an outfit pic!
Day 15. Write to encourage a friend. Inspire her beauty.
Day 16. Write a letter to your daughter, or a young girl in your life. Tell her what beauty means.
Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18. Describe your personality.
Day 19. Write about your favorite comfort food (we are women- we ALL have comfort food!)
Day 20. Write about your job and why you love it or hate it.
Day 21. Write a letter to your husband to encourage him (or if you are single- your future husband.)
Day 22. What are some needs that need to be met in your community? Blog about how to extend your hand to those who need you.
Day 23. What are your strengths? What are your weaknesses?
Day 24. What is Jesus teaching you presently?
Day 25. Style 31. Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26. What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27. Write a blog to encourage someone and build their confidence!
Day 28. Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29. Write about "a day in the life of me." (Pics are great!)
Day 30. Who is your role model as a woman?
Day 31. Write about your dreams and goals as a beautiful woman!

So I have cut it to 22 (I think), not so bad, I did cut out some that were not Christian themed per-say but I just didn't like the questions, especially the "letter to your husband/ future husband", that's weird. I am not going to promise to actually answer all of then because as I said I am lazy and forgetful so...sorry in advance!

kj

Hello

HI, So all of you reading this most likely personally know me, so this might be boring for you, TOO BAD!

If not, I am Kelsey Jeanne, I am 20 something (a lady never tells her age) hah. I have another blog it's about food and baking (here), I wanted a place where I could write about other random junk, so TA-DA! More Junk!

I don't really like stating what the blog is actually going to be about, because that always backfires, and broken promises and whatever (that totally happened on &junk, witch if you check out you will see I haven't posted on in a long time, but I will soon no worries!)

Buttt, I am going to do a lot of "blog projects" and write mostly about my life as a 20-something year old girl in Boston. (Probably one of the most boring things ever and sure to be full of crazy rants!).

Fun right?!

It is don't worry.